12.18.25

Uhh... Hi! It’s December now. I created this blog website back in October, but I never published it until now. December vacation has already started, so I can try to update this more often.

My intention with this blog/journal is self-expression—sharing opinions and experiences. Besides the shitty social media platforms that everyone uses, I feel like those have rotted the way people communicate nowadays. So I made this apart from that. A place where I can feel more confident expressing myself.

I could promote this blog thingy on social media, I guess. Maybe I’ll do that for the first posts. If some people stay after that, then cool, thank you for staying. But I prefer keeping this more personal and with a tiny audience.

12.19.25

Vacations

This holiday vacation has started. I love it but... I also feel a bit lonely sometimes. Im not the person who go outside with friends during this days. I would love it, but i dont know how to do the plans or ask them. Trough more days pass i feel more bored... I have my online friends whose i talk and play games with, but its not thse same. So i kinda hate vacations.

I was thinking about trying a new thing this vacation, so i cant be bored! and i tought: "If i like music so much, what stops me to learn to play piano?" So maybe that is what will happen... I have many things i want to do, like drawing and painting more, specially Oil Painting. Also i have pending books to read... so many things to do! i just need to organize myself better. (ᵕ—ᴗ—)

Stupid song...

I also wanted to write about this freaking song.......... Its Guruguru by Omi and Masarada. AND OOH GOD.... ITS SO REAL AND RELATABLE...... I recently found out about it, not when it released... what a shame...

If youre curious, here it is, I recomend you enable the subtitles for seeing the lyrics in English.

I love the aahh’s that the characters make when the other one is singing, hehe... The MV is so cute too, you can expect nothing less from Masarada. Heh— There have been some situations where I finally spoke to that someone, and you get that thought of “What if they don’t want to talk to me? I don’t want to be annoying...”

Also the action of ignoring or giving up hope, the thought of talking to them because you know you would never talk with that person.

And the song talking about the characters dreaming or hoping to be able to talk to each other one day... ..d. UGHHGWHHHHH— yeah, ok, you get the point.

I guess social interaction can be improved with practice, and that’s the hard part! Because I don’t want to... But one day I’ll have to do it anyway... so I have to try.

Thank you for reading.